The past two weeks have been about buckling down and proving to myself that this magical 13stone barrier that I've created in mind is just that - a creation.
I'm writing today in the knowledge that the magical barrier has been broken, as a result of two weeks of strict eating and gentle exercise.
Matt and I have both over achieved this week. I am now only 2kg off the lightest I've been in my adult life, and I am definitely the slimmest I've been. Matt is actually the lightest he has been in his adult life and is looking amazing for it. I just can't get over the change in us both. More importantly than anything, neither of us are obese anymore. That, in itself, is a HUGE milestone. It means the start of a healthier life and hopefully as a result, a longer one together.
I have found that as a result of my weight change, my hormones are having a fit and so, fresh from a trip to the doctors last week, I hope that shortly that problem should come to an end. It would be most welcome because the constant up / down cycle is taking its toll, and is troubling my psyche and as a result, having an impact on results. The worse I feel, the more demons I have to battle not to stuff my face....!!
In the past two weeks, I have managed to lose 1.7kg and I hope this week that I will have a similar result. I even earnt my 25lbs lost star this week. Interestingly, I am starting to notice little surprises. Things like a dress I bought ages ago to fit into now doesnt fit still, but because it's too big. I have lost an inch pretty much all round again. Matt bought me a pair of shorts from the supermarket on request, but bought a size 12 by accident. I can actually get them on (although they look ridiculously tight and will be going back, the point is that before I might have got one leg into a size 12 waistband) These are the things that help motivate me more than anything else. Even the below pic, I noticed my glasses look bigger on my face (the kitty is too cute though!!)
I also have a Weightwatchers buddy now in Trace, who has just started her journey and who I hope loves it and is successful.
I read a blog from a lady on weightwatchers today who was discussing her experience with a friend who was after a quick fix weight loss and was asked "How can you stand it?" Her answer was a really good one. She said that she can stand it because each day she wakes up feeling healthier, not tired and lethargic, and a different person to who she used to be.
I can't wait to get there. I'm only 6.7kg off target now, which I hope to achieve in the next 8 - 10 weeks.
This is the last push, and I know that it will be the hardest. New target clothes have been purchased (Golddigga jeans, yo) - 75 kg, here we come.
G out x
